doctor

i go to an endocrinologist because i have polycystic ovarian syndrome. basically i need birth control for my body to function normally. well i am now out of birth control and need to go to the docs to get more.

heres the problem, i dont want to go.

why? because i weigh even more then i did a year ago. when i go i tell them not to tell me my weight (the scale is in kilos) but the doctor comes in and freaking tells me anyway. pisses me off. cuz i dont need someone else, once again, telling me that i need to loose weight. i fucking know i do! im not dumb. why in the hell did he think i needed labs for intensive outpatient anyway? for fun? no.

so im avoiding it like the plague. i should just seriously go to plan parenthood...but i think theres more meds they need to put me on anyway. this really shouldnt be an issue. but ive made it one. if i could just drop 20 lbs...then i can go....