i suck

the most annoying thing in my day is that i cant restrict. i start off great. then by the end of the day i just give in and dont even fucking purge!! i hate it! i know i can successfully restrict cuz ive done it before. and its not like im eating nothing. my plan is around 600-750 cals depending on the odwalla drinks i have in the morning. then i have half a cup of mac and cheese with skim milk and little butter. then i have half a pg & j sandwich. and maybe a couple popsicles. seriously. thats enough for a day. yet i seem to just stuff myself at the end of the day anyway. it would be one thing if i were purging. but im not. im just too damn lazy to walk my happy ass up the stairs to do it. gah!!! tomorrows a new day and ill try harder. i mean, its not like ive never done it before. so i know i can do it. im just giving in to food and i hate it!!!