update

so ive been on this diet for like a week and im doing much better than i thought! its actually easier this time. ive pushed ED pretty far back. i havnt even wanted to purge. even tho i find myself sometimes regressing back to calorie counting panic...i usually stop myself. this is a huge improvement from the me a few months or so ago. i may still get nervous when i reach 1,400 calories...but at least im not starving myself or binging. im thinking happiness is finally possible for me. i have more motivation than ever before and am stronger when it comes to wanting to give in. ive lost 10 lbs so far and i continue to keep it up!