dropped

i was just dropped from my math class for not attending. awesome. i hope it doesnt affect my grade!

slipping

slipping back into wanting to binge and purge. i started WW and was doing good. then i failed and started pigging out. now im stressing about grades cuz im afraid ill get kicked out and im feeling fatter than ever! bulimia has always been my crutch and im wanting to lean on it. i dont even feel like fighting it now. i miss the feeling. i miss when my ED was at its worst and i was thinner. i want that thin back. i wasnt happy...but shit, at least i wasnt fat!

btw the national eating disorder awareness week is next week. i made a bulimia recovery bracelet...i think i need to change it...