oh mary jane

i get 49 weekly points to use as extras for the week. not only did i blow them all last night, but probably blew the next 3 weeks worth! i was so fucking high i had m&ms, velvetta cheese and shells, twinkies, rice krispie treats cereal, more m&ms....it was bad. i need to stop eating when im high. its causing a problem. :P

i also

want some taco bell!!

fighting boredom

god i want a stuffed crust pizza so fucking bad!!! its 1145pm and i want to eat for no reason. eat and purge is kind of the plan. but im already on a losing streak and i dont want to ruin that! i think ill just post a pic of the pizza here so i can look at it...

fuck the hut

ok seriously, im really getting sick of working at pizza hut. how in the hell am i supposed to lose weight with pizza around me all day! i kept to my points yesterday but tonight i broke down and had a couple pieces. not just any pieces...stuffed crust pizza! GRRR! i seriously hope this gets easier cuz i want to go throw up all this fucking food! but i wont. ive gone too long witout doing it and i cant give in now!

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along with trying this raw thing i also started back on weight watchers. yea i know one diet after the other. at least im not eatng gross dehydrated food!

trying to watch House...

but thanks bulimia for giving me the worst acid reflux ever!!!